We have been on a roller coaster here in our household. Marianne has just gotten halfway through her chemo. It has been a very rough three months for her. I feel so bad for her. She has lost over 20 pounds because she is so nauseous. She can't seem to hold anything down some days.
The chemo has really taken a toll on her. She has no energy to do anything. She wants to get out of the house but doesn't have the energy to do it. I wish there was more I could do for her. Some days I feel so helpless.
She is taking so many pills any more. She is taking nausea medicine, pain medicine,vitamins, then 3 pills to keep her body regular. Chemo does so much to her right now. All I can do is to call friends and family to see if they can get Marianne out. It is like a no win situation because if she sits in the house all day all she does is think about how bad everything is. She gets more depressed. Her friends cheer her up, but there are some days when she doesn't even want to talk to them.
This week is extremely stressful for us because she is getting a MRI and CAT scan done. She is so scared that the chemo isn't working. Cancer has changed my wife so much. She is so scared of dying and no matter what I say or do can't alleviate those fears.
All I can do is be there for her. And pray that she beats it. I wish she could have some good days that she feels good.
__________________________________________________________
My Month of April quote:
"Sometimes the only way to get to the far shore is to lose sight of the shore you just left"
Russ Ravary
"helping make your move easier"
your local Metro Detroit Realtor helping clients like you sell and buy homes through out the entire Metro Detroit suburbs. I love showing and selling Oakland County and Livingston County Lake front homes too.
Hello Russ, my prayers go out to you and your wife. I had to go through this with my mom a couple of years ago. It helped her when we would pray over her before she received her chemo and it never did get her sick. Try that.
Russ, my thoughts & prayers for the two of you. A very good friend just went through this and she spent her idle time blogging and on Facebook. Doesn't require a lot of energy, but allowed her to keep her mind off the chemo and such.
Russ-I am sorry to hear of your troubles. My best to you and your wife. Hang in there!
I can only imagine how afraid you both are right now. I pray that you find the strength to make whatever time left together special.
Russ, this can be such a scary time for Marianne, indeed. All you can do is be there for her, and convince her that you will stay as close as you can. I cannot imagine how scare she must be, but I also cannot imagine how scared YOU must be, as well. Of course you are taking care of your lovely Marianne, but please, make sure you somehow manage to take care of yourself. You are in my thoughts...